Today

Today - I did something that I had never done before in my life.

I admitted that I needed help, and opened my heart to God (at church - another first). And I felt a kind of peace that I had not felt in a long long time - a sense of relief and that there would be someone to help me through this turbulent time in my life - fyi - it has been the worst time of my life.

I was so relief that I cried at church. Now, I have the strength to go on. It may sound corny, but it's true! I do feel that someone up there is looking down one me - and patting my head, telling me that everything will be OK.

I so do need that. And afterwards, I went to the office to pick up my running shoes, and my boss was there. And we had a chat -

She asked me: " You've had a turbulent year. And I've sense that... don't be offended, but it seems like you bury yourself in work, and yet, nothing comes out of it. Is it because you're having difficulties getting over your ex-boyfriend?"

And she was right on the spot. And I opened my heart out to her, and told her that it had been so difficult - and she was so supportive.

" It's not easy getting over a relationship. No matter what people say, I know it's hard." She said. "Especially when you're in a new country, in a new job, all alone. It's hard."

She invited me to her house for dinner. I think I would like that.

I don't agree with everything the church said today, but I felt a sensation that I had never felt before. Maybe this is "the touch of God"... maybe , maybe. It give me spiritual strength.

I've never felt this good. Or maybe it was also that I just ran half an hour on the gym, and then another half an hour on the machines....